I saw october awakening right infront of me
And it was amazing
Because I Knew that I was going to be a part of october
Yesterday, I woke up feeling melancholic, not sure why, but I put it down to that "Autumn feel" in the air. The sun was shining, blue skies above but the wind was whistling which unnerved me somewhat. There were memories whirling about me, memories from my university days and early 20's in South Africa. Something felt different and then the obvious became apparent, I too am having seasons in my life and am changing, my mortality so real and the importance of embracing these changes, moulding into something different yet the same as I am living in the second half of my life.
There was a point where I felt I could let it get to me and allow that black dog in the recesses of my mind lurk into some form of significance but then I chose to renounce it and instead I chose to gather what I could, gather the right here and now of October. Make it a celebratory thing instead of a negative thing.
And so, I went walking in the woods, just me and the wind, we went walking and gathering what October has become.
I started to be restored, all my fears and anxieties lifted and my sadness was absorbed into those October leaves.
Nature had restored what life had stripped away.
Restored and renewed to embrace another day.
All better now, ready to gather November